New Years Musings and self reflection

So, forget all the pap about new years resolutions regarding drinking, diets, hobbies etc. Ive been thinking alot lately about myself as a person, my character, my traits, my strengths and weaknesses and how I can improve as a person. Sometimes I get so caught up in day to day banality that I guess I forget to take a check on who I actually am, as opposed to just acting in the moment.

So.

I will not be embarrassed or ashamed to be opinionated. This sometimes gets me in a lot of hot water with people, but you know what? Id rather have an opinion and the guts to stick by it than some wishy washy girl whose brain is filled with Eastenders and Miss Selfridge. All the people I truly admire are fearless when it comes to what they believe in, and I will strive to be more like them, than sit on a fence or bury my feelings on something. I like to think im diplomatic and always willing to listen to someone's argument but I shant fear treading on toes for what I believe in. People arent remembered in history for sitting on the fence.

I will also try and remember of all the things I have experienced and achieved. So, next time I decide I cant be bothered to go into the work kitchen because i feel ten per cent intimidated, I will remember for example, that I lived in NYC, so I really shouldnt be taking shit from a bunch of 20 year olds hogging the microwave.

I will at least attempt to curb my bitchy witchy gossipy ways. Unless its really funny or interesting.

I will try and stop trying to manipulate so much to get my own way - as my Dad says ' whatever is meant for
you will never go pas you.'

I will not take any off the cuff comments from people that make me feel shit about myself. Therefore, please bore off with your talk about how you feel fat today. I hope you actually get fat. Any kind of fat shaming comments shall be swiftly dealt with.

I will be more confident in my job and stop being so half assed because I am actually pretty good at it when I try. I will spend less time reading the daily mail and emailing my friends.

I will stop comparing my lifestyle, looks, personality etc to other peoples.

I will also spend less time discussing other peoples lives, and focus more on my own.

And seriously seriously...stop eating crisps for dinner.